itsjusme2

Love.

A four letter.

Pain.

Also a four letter word.

But these two words go hand and hand.

I have a first hand experience with both, together and alone. Lately it's been together.

Do you know what it is:

To think you love someone and they shut you down?
To feel so close to someone and not even know them?
To feel so strongly about someone, and have the feeling they do too?
To feel like they don't want to let you in?
To feel like they don't want to care about you?
To feel like the only reason they want to shut you out it so they can't feel what you do?
To hurt like you do?
To cry yourself to sleep at night?
To bleed just to feel something other then this?

It's just so hard to even think this way. To think that he'll never really see me for what I am. Other then just another bitch who will break his heart, or will treat him like shit, or both.

I just wish he can see me for someone won't do these things to him, and except me for what I am not who he thinks I will be.