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Each new thing......person, endeavor — whatever — brings an excitement......a hope......a dream to be fulfilled.........

It can be seen in eyes and heard in voices........
There is a joy and happiness — a new life and vigor — energy breathed and anticipation flows......

Everything is brighter.......and clearer..........
colors
and sounds
and smells

and the daily time for self.........the quiet times...........oh there is such a peace........a calm.......even in the excitement —
and rest is even......so restful............

You find that you can’t wait for each new day.......
And how quickly the days go..........and even the every day ordinary is fun........it’s like life is new and there is something invigorating..........passions soar.........and dreams have clarity........and belief that the most unreachable goals can at least be touched...........

And look to the skies........and the radiant beams shine down through the clouds — like heaven’s pathways........golden and shimmering — glistening and showing the way.........

And we begin to see........we begin to understand...........

to understand — that you know what you are here for.........the place you hold....... a worth realized................what a rush...........

And all you want to do is to give and share......this happiness......
so open the curtains............or let loose the horses............or attack the battlements.........or....once more unto the breach — well....... ......whatever the saying is............

And it is in giving that we receive..........
And oh............what has been received..........

..........and those things are never forgotten because they are so freely given..........nothing prompted........nothing expected...................there is nothing more beautiful — and how it stays in the mind and heart...............



........being made painfully aware of one’s own insignificance.........

Validation...........




And..........................the unimportance of any thoughts........or words..........or feelings.............that are had...........or wished............hoped.............desired to be shared..........


But.................
there is no one to share with........
oh — they are there......here — and heard and
seen — talking.......laughing.....oh the fun
that is being had --- you can hear it in the
tempo of their voices......the chatter makes
you laugh.......

and look at the eyes --- when fun abounds --- the eyes sparkle and the smiles brighten........and you just feel --- no, you know......that all is right with the world.......there is nothing like it.......

well except children at play.......

they are there......here — and heard and
seen — talking.......laughing.....

not imagined.......but physically........
really..........
This is not a dream.

They are here.


But the eyes
and the ears are shut doors.
Locked.


there is no one to share with.............oh............


Sharing is a happiness.........a joy.........

bringing worth to others so they can understand who they are......and what they’ve done.......and how they are appreciated......and the gift they are..........



No one to share with..............got you....................oh.......


A piece of paper.......simple........unadorned —
sits unopened.......

Of course it can’t hold any worth.......it looks
like trash.......and soon to be discarded
with all the rest.........and forgotten.........

Sure it wasn’t important........

......but at least no one will notice that it was
ignored and tossed....
and not even read.......

Spoken words — easily blocked out,but
can’t disguise or hide that fact...

Writings — Emails — Phones — Texting.............

Unanswered.......Rejected.......Returned.......Non-Reponses — forgotten or avoidance.......will never know — but does it make a difference....even if accidental, doesn’t that prove it’s unimportance anyway..........



Such is hard enough when individually done — one on one — but in public for all to see..............

it was so quietly said, nobody heard..........it was just a look, nobody could possibly notice.....there was a awkward quiet, but only for a moment and it was played off..............

The embarrassment is like nothing else........

And you can only stand and look a fool because there
is nothing that can be said or done..........and often it is
such a surprise that all you try to do is make a dignified
exit — hoping to be gone before anyone has noticed.........
anything..........


Validation is good.......
Validation gives knowledge........
Validation is truth..............................even if it is not the kind hoped for.........


But — at least it is not placation...........
and it is honest.........and what good is anything if it is not
Honest..............it would be worse to be surrounded by lies............



See — good can always be found..........